But Wave Chasing is back, mapped to the domain, and I’m not going to muck around with trying to get old posts back in, they’re over 9 years old and absolutely obsolete.

But, the goals remain the same. Move to beach, retire.

It was going to be a stretch 9 years ago, coming off a massive recession and family illness sending me far into the red. In that time I’ve also gone to grad school, had 6 figures worth of dental expenses (yay, America), gotten a job, entered a pandemic, taken a pay cut for the pandemic, and now I’m preparing for another massive fucking recession while watching society reach its breaking point.

Early retirement is pretty much out of the question anymore. And I’m not even sure capitalism is going to survive this – and I’m kinda dependent on it, despite the utter garbage it’s turned out to be. 😦

My mental health is kinda shit and I probably need therapy, but I can’t afford it financially, or having it somehow end up on my permanent health record as a pre-existing condition. (Again, yay America.)

Right now, my time to retirement is between 14.5 and 21 years, depending on if and when I try to move.

My house is a fucking disaster to boot (see: mental health) – and yesterday I just hit my breaking point, which rarely happens. Of all things, because I couldn’t find a jar of popcorn in the kitchen. (I still don’t know where the fuck it is. It’s entirely possible that I finished it and it’s just not there, but I am sure the moment I get another jar, it will magically appear.)

But it just resulted in a GODDAMMIT I NEED TO FIX ALL THIS SHIT moment. Moving and/or retirement won’t happen soon, but I need to work at it and if nothing else, make this a non-disaster place to live between now and whenever.

So, I decided to re-up the blog and try to hold myself accountable that way. The challenge is when I hit these “gotta do something” points, I do too much and just wear myself the fuck out, or I look around and I’m so overwhelmed that I just basically curl up in a corner and stop functioning.

So, gonna try and take it by tiny steps and we’ll see.