At least according to the little Vanguard tool. I don’t know if I can do it.

This month I should have worked around 104 hours – I rarely hit an exact 8 hour day, but if I did, 104 hours.

How much did I actually work? 159.5 hours. 20 of which while I was on freaking PTO. (Don’t worry, I charged the time, I’m not losing that PTO.) But that doesn’t make for a restorative week off in any way, shape, or form.

This is unsustainable. This month, I’ve barely had the energy at the end of the day to get the bare minimum done around the house. (Thank you, little Roombas for at least helping me keep things off the floor.)

I’m not eating well and not really getting any exercise in, and I am fighting off depression spending.

Roughly $28 today gets me a day in retirement. If I can add or cut $475 a month, that gets me there a year earlier. But I don’t think I have the energy or ideas for a side hustle like that, and I don’t really know what I can cut at this point.

That being said, June is a 3 paycheck month and every purchase is gonna have to be “is this worth X more days of having to work?” I just spent $51 at the grocery store – almost all necessary, but FML – here is the rundown:

• Bottle of cold brew – $6.50 (I usually make my own, but both pitchers need to go in the dishwasher, and this is far cheaper than a week of Starbucks.)
• 92 oz bottle of laundry detergent – $13.00
• Laundry scent boosters, biggest bottle available – $16.00 (Not 100% necessary, but they make the laundry smell really nice and I really like it.)
• Dozen eggs – $5.80 – slightly down in price…
• Salad Dressing – $2.70 – the vegetables won’t get eaten without it.
• Dental Floss – $4.50 – FFS, yes, it’s the “Glide” stuff that doesn’t shred in my mouth, but JFC.

The upside is, I do still really like the work I do, and the people I work with – but June is also going to be “reset those freakin’ boundaries” month as well. And I have a 3 1/2 day week this coming week, which is good and I am gonna do everything I can to actually only work 3 1/2 days.

Really what it all comes down to is that I am very, very tired.