Wave Chasing

So, some dumbass managed to throw her back out earlier this week by SNEEZING. So, it’s cut down on any heavy lifting around the house, but I have managed to maintain everything I’ve done so far.

Back is getting better, but I’m still so super pissed that it happened, cause I was on a hella good roll around the house, and that is very frustrating.

But, maintenance is happening and I’m getting some lightweight stuff done, so it’s certainly better than nothing.

I just wish my back didn’t hurt.

And things are improving every day. Wish I didn’t require a damn crisis to get going, but things are good.

And in some good news – I damn near had a full blown panic attack last week in the basement – there was a spot near the drain stack that looked like it might be water coming up from below. Not. Good. Not good AT ALL.

It was a shadow. Had I been looking at it from a different angle from the start, I would have seen it.

But JFC, the stress that caused me, and the relief when I realized what it was.

The basement is on the list for a big clear out once we are done with the plumber in the upstairs bathroom. But at least we’ll be able to take our time.

Brother fixed the toilet today – minor thing, flapper replacement, no issues.

But my anxiety and stress is through the roof cause I couldn’t stop thinking of the possibility of having to call the plumber if something went wrong.

Combo of messy house + expense got me very much on edge.

I found the pieces to the motorized scrubber and it’s charging.

Tub will get clean today.

Gonna focus on what I managed, not what I didn’t.

– Brushed teeth as soon as I got out of bed. (Seems weird, but given all the dental issues I’ve had, it’s really important.)

– Made the bed

– Took my vitamins (I’m really bad about this on weekends)

– Got to the store

– Made and ate food that wasn’t cookies. (Also ate some cookies.)

– Signed up for text message updates on possibly missing package.

– Cleared put crap from gmail.

– Watered the houseplants

– Plugged in iPad so I can eventually do some yoga.

– WENT FOR A WALK!!!! Just shy of 30 minutes, but probably the best/most important thing I did today. Also nicely coincided with the only bits of sun we had today.

– Cleaned the litter box. (OK, that was more important than the walk, especially as far as the cat is concerned.)

And I’m calling it a day. This is good enough.

And I had extra errands to run this morning and I’m already fucking wrung out before I’ve even had a chance to start anything around the house. 😦

Granted, it probably wasn’t the errands themselves but the 15 minutes spent trying and failing to get a dog to let me open the gate to his yard so he wasn’t wandering around the neighborhood and into the street.

So, I’m generally overheated, out of sorts, and pretty pissed at the dogs owner – according to the next door neighbors, he gets out all the time.

I’d already pared down my to-do list to the bare minimum, and I was feeling good about it before I had to go back out and about, but the wherewithal and energy are just fucking gone.

I’m going to give myself a chance to get my head back into it and hopefully I’ll find some get up and go, but I’m also not going to kick myself too much – I’m tired and that happens.